Where is my way out

I've been thinking a lot about faith lately.

I've been doing bible study every Friday for about 8 months. And somehow I feel it comes to a stage to ask myself, Am I a Christian? The more I wanna talk about it, the less I could say. Pieces of thoughts just come and go in my mind, but I can't find an outlet or some way to sort them out.

It is common to consider someone a Christian if he could answer all yes to the following questions:
Do you believe Jesus Christ is the Son of God?
Do you believe that you are a sinner?
Do you believe he had to die for your sins?
Do you believe he resurrected after 3 days?
Maybe there are more questions or questions in different angles. These are what I've heard most frequently.

I think again and again about these questions. But I don't know how to answer. Truely that they are just simple yes and no questions, but when it comes to 'believe', it's hard to tell. I could say I know the answers have been written in Bible, and I am willing to believe Jesus died for us by his holy will. But did he HAVE to die for my sins? I feel blank. I don't know how to connect myself, or my sins, to his death. And I don't know how the reason he laid down his life for us
is gonna affect my life now.

Pictures of UNICEF

UNICEF is located at 3 UN Plaza, (44th Street, between 1st and 2nd Avenue).

It's NOT in the UN building, but on the opposite side of the 1st Avenue. By the way, I've never been into the UN building yet.

One side of the lobby. J8 is a Junior Summit.

The other side of the lobby, a small exhibition to introduce UNICEF.

We have children from all over the world, well, on the wall. This is just one of them.

This is exactly the UN building, and you can see tourists walking down there.

Things across the river are belonging to Brooklyn.

On my way home, I took some pictures of Grand Central.

How I found an internship at UNICEF

I've been dreaming of becoming a quantitative analyst, as my background in computer science and statistics fits that job well. However, after months of internship searching and interviewing a couple of financial companies, I haven't been offered any position.

Then I found an internship post on the website of Career Education Center at my school, and without hoping I could make it ever, I submitted my resume, as I was dazzled by the name of UN.

After a while, when I received an email saying 'Can we do a telephone interview tomorrow', I don't even remember what this is referred to, as I submitted my resume to dozens of posts to find an internship. But finally I recognized, using my computer engineer's trick, this is from UNICEF. I quickly checked the description and found out this position is for COMMUNICATION intern. How am I gonna prepare for this position?! I have no background in it!

In fact, the interviews, both telephone and in-person one, are not very stressful for me, as I really don't know what I could prepare for this, honestly. All I did is being punctual, honest about what I think about their project and what I plan to do this summer (I even told them I prefer any internship than nothing. How could I compare UNICEF internship with NOTHING, lol.) But fortunately, my interviewer, who is my supervisor now, didn't mind my desperate answer that much, or even didn't mind at all, which I have no means to know.

I am right now composing my report at home, happily. I thought some of you might be interested in how I found an internship at UNICEF, and this is my story.

Unicef intern

I am doing internship at UNICEF this summer, and I will be working at communication division as a statistician.

Currently, my job is to conduct assessment of multiple media tools, including Vocus, LexisNexis, Factiva, etc. Normally these tools will at least one of the following 3 functions:

News Database for monitoring
Meida Database for reaching the right journalist
News Distribution for establishing media impact

I've finished determining which company has which function. The next step I will work on compare a certain function through different solution provider/company.

This is not a quant job I've dreamed of, but there is fair amount of reading, analyzing and writing involved, which provides another kind of exercise for my brain.